Sorry guys.... forgive ma manners

Very sorry for not properly introducing Marian. Ok so here goes: People... here's Marian. Marian meet my people here. Wanna tell 'em a bit abt urself? So at least the think they know u..... which they wont ever do.

Tears Getting A Checkup.... Hurt Me Later, Dork!!

I am totally convinced life has reached its apogee of unfairness and betrayals. And i'm caught up in that web spun by an invisible revered being who is supposedly controlling the affairs here on earth and yet is not responsible for any misfortune or any ill deed. Senseless!!! The thought just beats me. Perhaps my human mind cannot fathom it's possibility - my "weakness" i guess. To add more to disappointment, ppl crowd me feigning concern. MISERABLE HYPOCRITES!!!! And most of these ppl are my "friends" and that's wot hurts. To think that they take pleasure in ma falls . But of course I neva show wot’s inside.I hide behind an armour like a warrior, neva showing how weak and small I feel. Showing to the world bravery and confidence in this woman but deep inside still a child and battling with emotions deep within. Sometimes I’m intrigued by my naivity….i allow the same ppl to hurt me ova and ova again. But that’s all gonna change soon. NEW AGE ,NEW ATTITUDES. so get ready, ya’ll aint seen nothing yet.

And ppl it’s alright to cry sometimes and show everyone how soft you are on the inside. Just goes to prove you are human afterall….So next time if u cry and they ask y tell ‘em "I TOOK MA TEAR GLANDS TO THE WORKSHOP SO I’M TRYING THEM OUT" or beta still "I’LL HANG THEM OUT TO DRY LATA."

My Robin and the Dimple Saga

My robin called and the sudden rush of words hit me and left me boneless…stripping me of ma self control and sanity and all that kept me composed. I stood dumbfounded and interrupted ma speechlessness with stupid occasional giggles (which weren’t helping much)…all ma thoughts distorted. And for a split second ma body froze and didn’t function at all. Now tell me ppl , is this more than a crush or wot?? I NEED AN ANSWER BADLY. My Robin and I talked for a while but somehow the phone lines got tangled and….the line went dead and the convo ended. DAYYAM. .Just when we had gotten to the juicy bit. I kept hovering ova the phone for sometime and when I had almost given up(after 5 minutes) the phone rang and silly me….i couldn’t pick it up. I jumped a couple of times..did a little tap dance… swirled and screamed “WHEEEEEEE” just like Robin would and then picked the phone up and breathing into it like God Knows Wot. And it sure was ma Robin alright . Even though this convo was short…it was worth it.

But one question I forgot to ask Robin was how he felt about dimples….I dunno about u but I’ve always had a thing for dimples…and I been fighting for one eva since i can remember well my fight did pay-off .I've got one now .But I really have to grin like a Siamese cat and grit ma teeth real hard b4 a teeny weeny one shows in ma left cheek(ask awareness).. And I’ve often had to debate with folks that it IS a dimple ..Of course they neva agree they think it’s just a skin fold.. To think that I always have to go through that ordeal to prove ma point all the time and all I get is “it’s just a fold”. Time I even crack ma jawbone and had it hanging loose for days(WERE U THERE?). Thanks to ma mum’s sewing kit and glue from dad’s garage tool box I got it all fixed.. And I wouldn’t risk that again. Not even to show that cute boy Robin the teeny weeny “fold on ma cheek”..

Dimples... Turn On, Turn On or Turn On?

Tell me... arent they like accesorries on cars and bikes and stuff? Like double xhaust and stuff? It really does turn me on but let's say it has to match with the rest of the body. You dont just take any body and stick dimples on them and hope it works. It's like god put some accesories on some girls u know.... and some had a bit less accesories, like marian 'cos they didnt need it. U're awesome just the way u are, and that's not me just sweet-talking u... i am, but it's also the truth.

I'll tell u wot... from what i heard you've become more and more nice to look at so if my memeories of what u are and ur pic are anything to stand by, u shd be drop-dead gorgeous. And i envy ur boyfriend, but of course a lil' freak accident can take care of him, cant it? lol
So my final virdict? Dimples do turn me on depending on who they're on... but then of course everything does turn me on. Well cant blame me from havin "ON" buttons all over me.
Now Marian do you realise that by me answering this question i'm kindda telling who Robin is? Well been talking to Robin and he says he's been thinking a lot. He's a bit confused as to whether to go for what he wants or just be wary of long distance romancing as had always been his policy.... well, i wont speak too much for Robin.... he says he'll talk to you later. But Robin says when it started out he never xpected anything like this and he's scared shitless.... never seen him so confused before. Maybe I know too much about Robin dont I, Marian? A bit too much. And one more thing... Robin does like you. He does, and it's making him uncomfortable. I wish u two luck

Does (s)he Xist for you? God? the Devil?

Hi Marian, I've been carefully xamining ur post. The one about being hurt and stuff. This sentence caught my attention rather too quickly:
"web spun by an invisible revered being who is supposedly controlling the affairs here on earth and yet is not responsible for any misfortune or any ill deed. Senseless!!!"
You doubt to some xtent the xistence of god, dont u? maybe what u actually doubt is they way ppl try to create their own impressions of what kindda being it is. I've debated that issue so many times with ppl and GreenGem* of Ghanachat was the only person to give me quite a reasonable xplanation of what makes me turn away from religion. I think it's all the diplomacy that goes wit it. I do believe in a god but not in that way as most ppl will like me to believe. That he directly influnces what we do.... like make us do better in an xam.... make us not get on a plane that's gonna crash. Whiles at the same time allowing another 130 or so ppl to get on board. And the classic answer u get when u ask question? "He works in mysterious ways".... well did i forget to tell u i hate mysteries? If i cant understand it, then u can have ur thing back

Some people do really belive in that kindda xtent as to thank god with all sincereity even when they'd done something wrong. Like jump on the tube[subway] without paying. Maybe what we all need is just something to help us hand on to our sanity. So we create an aura around our god and try to make too many strict rules by which to abide with. when i choose to do or not to do something it's mostly based on what my level or morals tell me to. What i think is morally right might not be to you... plus when i think "god" it's as something to belive in, to hold on to... and not to blame for every piece of crap that comes ur way... i think of god as a part of me... so as the devil... they're inside me. plus the whole heaven and earth thing, i like to think of as a state of mind rather than places u go to when u're dead. And if i have to blame or praise anyone it'll be the ones inside me.... the ones that i understand... the ones that make me set the rules... the ones that set my conscience at ease.
But or course a whole lot of the society will alienate me when i go round speaking like this.... which is a load of crap. So when i go out i shut ma mouth concerning this. Havent been to church [or the mosque] for a loooooooooong time. I'm a long shot from being in heaven [as a state of mind].... but i'm not entirely in hell [as a state of mind] either. I'm not happy wit ma life... but who is? We're all gonna be in hell most of our lives anyway.

Anyway, whateva u belive god is, Marian [and everyone out there].... hold on to it. If it helps keep ur sanity. Mine's doing an "OK" job. Just enough to keep me from falling off the deep end. gOd RuLeZ!!

HE TOLD U EVERYTHING???

Comeon Faf.. arent u exaggerating a bit...i'm still the same person u saw 5 years ago.And i'm not looking any better either.HYPE(hubby) you better watch it cos someeone wants to be in your versace shoes.lol.(my bf isnt cheap.).I know you and Robin are friends but does he really tell you everything??THEN i'm sure he gave you all the gory details too.God!! Guys can never be trusted with stuff like that(my opinion).

Looks like you wanted to beat my record(posting two posts at a time)...and since u run out of ideas today...u decided to answer Robin's questions for him..It's a good thing though cos it gives me a fair idea of what he's feeling ie if you are being honest.And Faf i know you want to be my ROBIN but you didnt have to make it that obvious...You really like to play with ppl's minds dont you?lol Now ppl...have u eva taken a picture and felt that person in there is definately not you cos it dont look sh** like you?? Like hell it dont!!! Who posed in front of the camera and said "tits"??LOL.TITS rings a bell...oh yeah..i saw this ad in a lonely hearts column of this magazine by this tits obsessed freak.His ad was the longest and tits appeared in almost every line.I'm sure he was that kinda baby that nipped his mum's boobs all the time when he hadnt even gotten his first tooth.

Softie For Ms McBeal

Alright alright! i confess I do watch Ally McBeal.... and i love it. i cant afford to miss it for any reason at all. I'm so hooked that it's one of the things that i can give up being online and updating this site for. I watch it not so much for the humor as being the writers' of the series being able to subtly put some real important information in all the nonsense that happens. To most people who watch Ally McBeal.... Ms. Flockhart who plays Ally will be the star, but not for me. I havent seen a cast this good anywhere else... sometimes i can almost forget it's just TV. If you havnet watched Ally McBeal before for one reason or the other, here's one quote by Ms. McBeal I just heard... and there's more where it came from:

Ok I know i cudnt ignore this thing for long so i'll face up to it now. Misteeq... u really think she fell for me huh? That just goes to show how jumping to conclusion with only some patchy clues can lead u way off track. Maybe i'm Robin.... maybe i'm not. Maybe she has a crsuh on Robin.... maybe she's just kidding. For Ur evaluation of the situation and ur compliments to me, well thanks. Xcept i dont really see myself as what u make me out to be. but we're all entitled to our opinions... and Marian "not molato" Harris has hers that she wants to keep to herself... i'm outta here already!

Prepared To Give It A Go

Hey Marian... thought u shd know that i've spent two days writing and re-writing this. After writing one as long as 50 lines i decided to keep it as short as possible.

Let's not dwell on whether i'm Robin or not. Not to center on what people think about us "running away from love" or not. Yes she's right... we're "pathetic" as misteeq put it.... but i know a good thing when i see it. Though like i told u there isnt any guarantee that the plane will fly.... i'll give it a try. I'll try to fly it!! And i'm prepared to do so even with you carrying the parachute. At least then i cant blame myself for not giving it a go.
You're a wonderful person to know... and i know i'll be beating myself for a long looooong time if i dont try working things out. If anything... you shd know i like you.... and i hope it's not just a crush.... cos crushes do pass over. And i want this to last... for long.

Tougher Than Durex.... But Just Some Gloves

Hey ppl.... after missing out on work on monday and not being called early enuff for work on Tuesday.... I did get a call from ma agency for an appointment just near ma house today. These low-pay jobs are what i live on so i was there in a jiffy. Afterall i missed about £50 pay in this week already so i had to.
It was an industrial booking so i figured i had a long day ahead..... and a tough one. Turned out i was just gonna be WIPING dust and dirt off door hinges. They make door hinges and other door fittings there.... so before they are packaged..... i had to wipe them..... me and a few others.

I had to wear some gloves to do this kindda work but since there was no potential of being cut or scratched by one of these suckers they were just some thin LATEX gloves. Now, the surprising thing is.... though the hinges might not scratch me.... i thought those gloves wudda been ruined by the end of the day. I mean with the way LATEX has a habit of breaking... if u know what i mean. So here I am working from 10am till 5pm with these gloves on.... and not a single split in the RUBBER.

Now after thinkig about this for a while... i figured the company that made these gloves will also make good RUBBER..... i mean real RUBBER. CONDOMS... If you havent figured it out yet!! Yeah....so i kept looking for a logo or a name on the gloves but i couldnt find anything.... i even asked my supervisor which company made them..... he looked at me wryly and didnt gimme any answer. Probably thinkin.... "what an ass!!". Anyway..... so since I'm gonna be working at the same place tommorrow... i'm gonna make sure i know where the gloves are kept.... maybe there'll be something on the box that'll lead me to the company.

And hey ....to be on the safer side tomorrow, i'm gonna "take" about fifty [YES 50!] of the gloves. So in case i find the company and they happen not to make RUBBER [real rubber!!].... i'll just IMPROVISE with them. So wish me good luck in finding dem darn RUBBER makers.

Talking of luck.... my AS Level results are supposed to come in tomorrow. AS Level is the first year of the full A Level course in UK. Wish me luck on that..... now if i dont mention this again then that might mean I failed pótó-pótó [i think that wud translate to english as "miserably"]. Wish me more luck here!!

Pregnant Illama Chanced Upon In the South American Desert

Ok so I went and i did go look at the gloves.... they had "Guard-Ex" written on their boxes so i did a search for "guard-ex gloves" on Google.com [click here to see results]. It turned out they only make industrial stuff.... no condoms... sorry guys. Now i know what u're thinking.... the IMPROVISION!! Ok i'll admit.... i was kiddin'. I mean what kindda person d'u think I am? U really thought i was gonna use gloves as a substitute for condoms? nah... plus what kindda girl wud it be???!!! huh? what kind?? So i didnt take the 50 gloves home. And i guess we'll have to go back to our Durex

Ok so i was talking about not having done jackshit yesterday at work and being still paid for it huh? Well... turned out it was just a taster session. Today, they worked me like how some thirsty Mexicans, lost in a South-American deser,t will milk the pregnant Illama that happens to come their way. Does that give u the picture? I'm real real tired. I got two breaks but hey.... it was like they were telling me, "You'll work for every single penny, wiseass!!". Anyway i'm off to the same place tomorrow... i learnt a few tricks i cud use to eat away the time. Nuff siad!!

Ok...so these stupid punks are playing a game with me huh? I mean the guys at my college. They were supposed to post the results in [or so they said].... now i've been anxious all day waiting to come check the mailbox to see ma reults, and when i come home..... what do i find?? Nada!! Zip!! Nothing.... Shweee. It's all over the news that the results are in...so i might have to take a lil' trip there if it appears they arent gonna mail our reults to us afterall.

No Option Than To Look On The Bright Side

OK ppl.... i got the results today. it's not xactly very good news.... but it wasnt too bad either. I wrote 7 modules. Three each for maths and economics and the other module was for IT (the minor project). I missed the other Two modules for IT(info. tech.)...and will have to take them in January.... I know i'm strong there and i'm hoping for A's in both. I already have an "A" in the minor project but that's where the good news ends. I got B, C, D for maths with the D being in Statistics Mod. 1.... I lost most of the pts so it really messed me up. It brings my maths average to D. It's a high D though so i'll take that stats and the C module paper sometime again in June or something and make it a B, i hope.

U think this is bad enough?? wait till u hear this.... Ecomomics went : C, A,.....then this fucked everything up.... an E. The E was in Natioanl and International Economy.... if u refer to my post back in may u'll see i knew something like this was coming since i really wrote a load of rubbish on that module. I wont retake the C... i'll just do E again since the C was a few points short of a B. I'll rather center on working on the National Economy paper than waste time chasing a few points. So my average for Econs.... C.

The only good news here is that with A, C, D...... i have 18 points... enough to go do Internet Computing & Statistics (or Mathematics) in Kingston. I just decided this a few hours ago after days and days of contemnplating. Now these points are just half of the full "A level" course points. S o i have 9 points..... not bad, since i plan on doing better than this next year in the final part of the xam. So one year down... one more to go.... and i didnt do too bad afterall.
The thing is i dont actually have any option than to look at that side i just presented you. Either look at that or feel bad about myself for god-knows-how-long.

So fuck it.... i'm going to Miss Ghana, UK tomorrow.... Adén Yé Bé Wu 'Nti Y'énda?

Miss Booty-Full Ghana, UK 2001 and Why BigFoot's Life is Bad

Hey... so who's going to the Miss Ghana thing in Strattford too? I'll be there.... if my circumstances remain unchanged. Then u'll find me there. if u cant recognise me from ma pic or something... look out for this wierdo who keeps on taking his cap off and putting it back on like crazy. That wud be me. It'll probably be one of ma Kangol caps... yeah so i'm a Kangol person.... and a Timbs person too.

So today after ma results came in ... i decided to "congratulate" myself..... by buying myself another pair of trainers.... I went round to Wood Green Shopping center and started browsing. Now, I tell u... i wear UK size 11 [44 elsewhere]. It turned out anytime i decided on one footie and was ready to pay for it... they never had any size eleven. Dem fools!! This shd tell u what kindda life BigFoot is living if he exists for real. Anyway... i'll see if i can order for it to be delivered to me at home. Then i have to get on the bus again.

Another thing that's just come up.... i seem to be growing my Wisdom Tooth. I'm getting dumber each day so any xtra help this tooth can bring is welcome. But the shit is.... it's as painful as kucf!! I went thru the whole day feeling like my Jaw was falling off... now i've taken some painkillers so the pain's dulled .... i hope dem painkillas work their magic tomorrow too... cos i'm not giving up going to the miss ghana thingey.

One las thing.... d'u know what they say about guys with big feet? huh... do you? Well... so what d'u reckon? Let ur imagination run wild.

WebCam Ads By GoateeStyle.com.... Free

Hey see what i got today for free... I went surfing and found out aba this Goatee wearing guy... he has a webcam and I spent quite some time watching him do stuff and talking to him some. Maybe I shd get one of thise cams. I asked him if he could do an ad for me.... here's what:

Nigerian 419 Scams.... Now Coming To A Mailbox Near You!!

See, i've been getting a lot of this stuff of late. I dunno... i think it's cos i leave ma mail addy lying all over the place. Sometimes though i use just "anon@anon.non" when i dont wanna be known. So i figure it's these african sites that have been submitting my address to spammers.

Anyways... have you heard about the Nigerian 419 scams? It's named after the clause in the Nigerian Law that made it illegal [tell me if i'm wrong here]: Someone approaches u and proposes a very tempting "business deal". Normally u dont have to do anything... u sit back and the money goes in ur bank accout... but of course sometimes the money does LEAVE ur account. Shit is... i cant belive ppl are actually that greedy enough to fall for it. Nothing is funnier than the stories they concoct when making these "business proposals". I think they wud be better fiction writers than conmen. Here's one funny one i got today:

To read the full *business proposal* click here

Just another human being..... she's dead

Aaliyah... she's dead. Just another human being. All her fans.... are they gonna care... i guess it'll be down to her family to care now.

Elem Afua Fleku... After A Year on "No Read", "No Hear" and "No See"

I just got got a letter from Elom the other day.... if u dont know who she is go read the "The Past". It was real cool to get a letter from her. She got in Med school in University of Ghana, legon.... so u shd know i wasnt over-estimating her ability. U're good Elom!! Way to Go!

Paranoid Personality Disorder or too much Dean Koontz??

I saw this site of a lady up-n-coming psychaitric, Sylvie who gives some "evaluations" and advice on her site if u put up ypur problem... i decided to play this thing on her. I know she'll catch up with me soon as soon as she realises all the hits to this page [here] are coming from ma site... i hope she's not pissed. Go read it and decide for yourself if I might be suffering from what she says or just been reading too many Dean Koontz books.

BLEH -- Bald Like an Eagles Head

I was thinking abt this incident last week that somehow managed not to make it onto the site. Cos I've been real busy in the back.... if you can guess what i was doing ;).

Well the thing is...I was working as a stand-in for someone at one of those factories I work for. The guy that I was assigned to work with is what this is all about. The first thing u'd notice abt him is his complexio: He's REAL dark. Y'know like one of those east african type dark? And he's from Sudan so I worked it out right.

So we were working and talking ... discussing girls and music an' shit... and I was thinking, "Yeah... this guy is cool... We could hang out sometime." He's 21 so I figured it'd be ok... cos he lived just around ma place... maybe got out clubbing sometime.
And I was looking at his clothes... just the type of guy that set's trends with his way of dressing..... and he had on a Kangol cap... my favorite too.

Ok here's where it get's fun... He took of his cap!! Have you guessed?.... He's BALD!! lol.... naturally balding at 21? Come'on if I hang out with him the girl's are gonna think I'm 41.... or that he's my dad. Yeah of course he can wear a hat or cap.... but they dont allow those in London clubs.

So me.... i dont hang out with bald 21-yr old niggaz. Call me whatever u want!!

Cop Killer For Real or Just Runing His Mouth

Yesterday I posted twice and did so many other stuff that I was nearly hit by a car. I was on ma lunch-break from work and i decided to take a walk and think. I do that when i dont wanna eat. So i was walking down to Tottenham Hale Station... I got to these set of traffic lights it was red so had to wait. Then just when it turned green.... this guy in blue Warb Convertible [CLK] tried to inch hi way in since i was the only person crossing the road. I was walking slow... like in a sombre mood. But the asshole wanted to go though the lights had been green for abt 5 seconds already.

So i stood in front of the car and called him "a fuckin idiot". Y'know I got a haircut and did a goatee and I look real macho.... so i thought i'd try it out on him. Just stood there to make sure he didnt go b4 the lights turned yellow or sum'in. Then something hit me to look at his licence plate: K1L C0P. Wow.... this wasnt an easy guy!! So i didnt stand there to see if he'll run me over and K1L the C0P's when they came.

Note to self: Goatees dont make u get superhuman powers

Accra Aca -- Bleoo. At last a site worth looking at

I've been online for a year and a half now. Now the first thing that I wanted to see after the usual porn sites was to see a website about ma school: Accra Academy. I dont live in ghana anymore and I cant do a site good enough to look at concerning Accra Aca. so i've been xpecting someone else to do it. Probably funded by the school.... but no. I've actually been able to manipulate the serach engines to get my site to the top ten concerning searches for "Accra Academy [try it]. Now today I saw one site that seems to be a one sman effort by the Computer Studies teacher of the school. It's not xactly very good to look at but at least it does talk about Accra Academy. And does have pictures and stuff.
Take a look

Not Everyone's Been Online For Long

It seems i'm getting lots of complaints regarding the navigational links. These newbies on the net that wont click anything on the net unless it says. [Click me] or [Click here] or [Enter] or [Dont Click]. They cant make it past my first page since there's nothing like those there. I've made some adjustment to the index page so clicking THE FACE wont show a new one. Though refreshing it will reload a different colored image. When I get some time on ma hands i'll make a BIG [Enter Here If U're Stupid] image and hopefully will get those single access people to find their way in too.

PS: The intro's page is still the same way it was, there're only a few links there so and whichever one they use will bring 'em here anyway so... i'll see to that

Happy Birthday Marian... Hope U're Partying Like Crazy

Hey Marian.... are u having a blast? How did u know i was sleeping when u sent that message? Sleepy head? Mnn, I like the sound of that. Anyway you liked the story? I forgot to give you the link so you can vote on it. You know I could say stuff on here... but abi u knorr? Hell... I'll say it anyway. Love you Marian. Happy Birthday.

Notice To Vistors

I'll not be posting frequently if ever during the weekend. I have a few stuff that I have to do before college starts. The summer jobs i've been doing have to go so i'm gonna have to get one of 'em clerical or bartending jobs. Then there's college beggining next week... change in timetable after first year... will have to re-adjust and other things so i'll be keeping my mind on school stuff and give the site a rest. Anyway i'll still be checking ma mail so let the hate-mail flow. I'll be listening... i mean reading. and sign the godammed guestbook.